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Things that make me wonder

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I’ve missed you blog world. It’s been nearly two years since I’ve been on. We are now settled in what I call “The Dunning Mountain Retreat”, we are pearch in the Hualapai Mountains watching the sun set, the clouds crawl over like a dream and the wild life from the darling quail to the big bulky Elk who visit occasionally. We installed fake grass last fall so our grazing friends have moved on to not so green, but tastier pastures.

This is life, this is real so it seems we always have some rumblings to work through.

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Today I was thinking about this quote from the book of Ruth 2:13; “Let me find favor in your sight, my lord; for you have comforted me, and have spoken kindly to your maidservant, though I am not like one of your maidservants.”

I went many years thinking I was not fit to be one of God’s maidservants, He reminds me time and again with His gentle hand how He feels about me, He looks on me with favor, He looks on me with gentleness of a loving Father. No matter the circumstance His tenderness amazes me.

So, who are His maidservants? Who are His friends? Who walks with Him, hand in hand?

John 1:12-13 says; But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name: who were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.

When you know He is knocking on the door, answer it. Receive Him. Welcome Him.

Walking Hand in Hand (sometimes leaning pretty hard),


At the end of the day you’re another day older.

The title is from Le Miserables, what a fabulous musical and sometimes you just can’t get the music out of your head.

Finally we were going to get cement poured at our home.

The ground is ready, we and the contractors are ready.

John and Doug; cement and general contractor. Don't they look ready!?

But alas the winds of spring blow and blow hard in the high desert of Kingman, AZ so today’s wind will halt the pouring of cement.

I woke up this morning with a feeling of angst. Why? Just saying that word makes you makes you feel crooked. Everything is great, building a house, our children are lovely, all quiet on the western front. Then why? Do you ever wake up and  just have that feeling? Maybe just a lot to do. We have to move at the end of the month. Yep move out March 31, then again when our house is complete.

On the other hand, I wake up and know that there are great things happening and thank God, He is in control and not me 🙂

Spring has sprung!

Philippians 4:8-9  Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there isany virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you.

Off to a peaceful, productive day ~Susie


Faith, Hope, Love

1 Corinthians 13:13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.

I just listened to The David Crowder Band sing, “Oh How He Loves Us”. It is such a powerful song. Jesus took His love to the cross, for the joy that was set before Him (Heb 12:3). Part of that joy was that we would answer the call to choose Him.

… The greatest of these is love.

Sometimes we can know we are loved but we just can’t grasp the faith and hope thing.

Faith~ Hebrews 11:1 (NKJV) Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

Hebrews 11:1 (Msg) The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It’s our handle on what we can’t see.

Literally the “substance” is standing under something, “steadying it”.

So if we have faith as in Mark 11:24 Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. Faith gets under and steadies our Hope for what we are believing.

I knew God loved me. I didn’t understand love or how He could love a wretch like me. I had seen His faithfulness time and time again. But to trust enough to ask, believe and have faith that what I hoped for will happen or I would receive, I think that was the tricky part.

Oh trust Him, God can’t lie (Numbers 23:19). He offers us promises beyond what we can even imagine. He is good.

What are you hoping for? What changes do you need? What miracles are you believing for today?

Lyrics from How He Loves us……..

When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us so

Having faith in the unseen ~ Susie


Mid Autumn Night Dream

Well I would call it a dream if I had been sleeping. I woke up at 3:30 am. Lately if I wake up in the middle of the night I get up, I read or well, surf Facebook or Pin on Pinterest. Last night I thought, maybe if I stay in bed, snuggled in my cozy blankies I will fall right back to sleep. I wouldn’t dare share when I am having one of those worry sessions, lets just say I have to discipline myself after all the cares I don’t cast on the Lord. 2Corinthians 10:5 & 6  bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, and being ready to punish all disobedience when your obedience is fulfilled.

Here’s how 3:30 am went: Oh no I haven’t even looked at tile for my new house; All bathrooms need tile, two showers, a tub and I love that green tile I saw in that magazine. Did I rip it out? I should Pin it. Maybe I should get up and start Pinning.

No, cozy warm bed, chilly family room.

I can’t remember what kind of tea Micki drinks. I know she likes Passion tea from Starbucks, but I want to have everything she loves when she’s here.

This is a picture of Jane and me running in the wee hours of the morning in Jerusalem

I wonder if Lee and Jane Cummings made it safe to India. Wouldn’t it be disastrous if their luggage didn’t arrive? I so enjoyed spending time with Jane in Israel. I would love to see them when we go back to GR. What did Lee think of the books he read on the plane?

Did Brett, our 35 year old, very capable and independent son find a place to live? Maybe I should fly there and help him.

Wouldn’t it be nice if I can sleep?

I should have looked at the website the cabinet guy wanted me to look at. I’m not sure what kind of cabinet I should put in the powder room. Valencia Mosaic Copper Vessel Sink Should I put a pounded copper sink there?

I don’t even know where to shop for tile and carpet and Micki is going to be here in 10 sleeps, I better find out where we can shop.

Ok, if I sing maybe I will fall asleep, “Glory to glory to, glory to, glory to, glory to God” Fred Hammond is not a good lullaby. Lord rest is good, please help me sleep.

At about 4:15 am I know Dennis is awake too. His breathing changed, I don’t want to stir. Oh geez did I move around too much and wake him up?

The room lights up. Yes we are so close to our neighbors that when they turn their bathroom light on it lights up our bed room. Steve and Mindy are getting up to go to the gym.

I wonder how Samantha’s squash turned out? Oh no, I didn’t put those pictures together for her.

I got a card to send Rhiannon and Steve and I didn’t send it yet. It’s been on my desk for two days, I need to send it out.

If I get up quietly, grab my warm clothes from the closet, go and make coffee will it wake Dennis up? I know the answer is yes.

I should make granola for Maria and Doug and buy them a puzzle.

Seriously, all these important thoughts and they are all critical to get completed at 3:30 am-5:00am.

The last time I looked at the clock it was 5:01 am. I fell asleep. The alarm went off at 5:30 am. Up and at ’em! Give me strength to do all on my list and wisdom to weed out the folly.

1 Kings 3:14 So if you walk in My ways, to keep My statutes and My commandments, as your father David walked, then I will lengthen your days.”

Psalm 116:7 Return to your rest, O my soul,
         For the LORD has dealt bountifully with you.

God gives me rest and He lengthens my days. Oh, He is so incredibly good to us! I hope I don’t waste that time with idol thoughts.

Feeling satisfied ~ Susie


When I want to get serious about worship I turn on Rita Springer. She has recorded music that stirs my spirit. I have listened to the same songs over and over for years. Does anyone else do this? Do you have a favorite worship leader who has written songs just for your soul? Yesterday morning I needed serious worship. That’s it time to plug in the ipod and dial up Rita. You know those days; dry, desert-ish type days, when you know you need the Word but just “aren’t feeling it”. Time for Rita.

So I turn it on and I listen to “Holy, You are so Holy,” twice.  She absolutely hit it out of the park with that song. Then I speed ahead and listen, not sure for what, just something. I don’t even know the name of her songs. I stop at the song that starts out, “I am not here to see a phenomenon, I am not here for experiential bliss.” Suddenly I hear a line I have heard hundreds, I am not kidding when I say hundreds of times. “If I have been a marketplace then turn me upside down.”  Whoa, I played it over and over, I couldn’t get off it. What does that mean? “If I have been a marketplace then turn me upside down.”

She goes on to say she just wants to bow at the feet of the One that she loves.

In Matthew 21:12-17 Jesus turns the tables over in His temple because the money changers are there and others are buying and selling goods. Jesus then quoted Isaiah 56:7 and Jeremiah 7:11, well really He paraphrased and brought them together to say, “It is written, ’My house shall be called a house of prayer’, but you have made it ‘a den of thieves.’ “

So why am I, this temple of the Holy Spirit moved so by this line in a song I’ve heard over and over?

Here’s my confession followed by my study. You know Proverb 27:17, As iron sharpens iron, So a man sharpens the countenance of his friends? Well, this little girl needed to be sharpened. I can’t say anything troubling or devastating or icky has occurred. I live in the desert. In the desert or anywhere else I need to be sharpened. I need to speak in Psalms and hymns, I need  Rhema, soak it in, talk about it, listen to Rita sing about it. I wasn’t. There ok, I wasn’t doing any of it!

After Jesus turned the tables over, He immediately began healing. The next line is remarkable. He rebukes in verse 13 then in 14; Then the blind and the lame came to Him in the temple, and He healed them. Verse 15 then recalls The children cried out in the temple saying, “Hosanna to the Son of David!”

 In First Corinthians 6:19-20 Pauls says, “Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? For you were bought with a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit which are God’s.

 So if we are not keeping our body and spirit filled with the Holy Spirit, our temple in order per say then is it a marketplace? Jesus didn’t need the temple to perform miracles, the temple is a house of prayer. If my temple is not a house of prayer, then what is it?

Turned upside down ~ Susie