It’s 1 am. Can’t sleep.
I’m fasting this week. I’m not telling you I’m fasting so you think any certain way about me. I’m telling you so I can tell you about the crazy that goes on in life when you fast.
So I decided with my friend and my sister we would fast this next 2 weeks together. We all have prayers to pray, and needed that one on one bonding time with God that you only get when you fast.
In that bonding time, crazy stuff happens. My fast; no pleasant food (starbucks, sweets, bread), no meat. But I’m also training for a marathon so I needed to have a good carb/protein dinner tonight for my long run in the morning. So I did a complete fast from 6pm yesterday to 6pm tonight and ate dinner, chicken, sweet potatoes and corn.
Here’s the crazies….
I live in a truck stop town. Within 2 miles from my house there is Burger King, In and Out burger, 3 McDonalds, Carls Jr., Sonic, Kentucky Fried Chicken, well you get it. I’m not a fast food eater. I do love McDonalds’ fries and Carl’s Jr burgers, but on any given day I drive by with no regard to any of them. Yesterday I suddenly had this NEED for a Sonic burger. I mean, I needed it. I was hungry and this whole walnut, pea and brown rice mixture (which was delish) wasn’t cutting it! I made it past the Sonic without stopping but I’m telling you my body wanted a burger bad!
Today I got a barrage of thoughts, I was so overwhelmed. What about this? What about that? Oh my goodness, how can anyone do anything unless I jump in and help or give orders. I was treading water just about to physically spin around.
Whoa! Then my mind gets in line with God. I love how He reels me in. Do I find comfort in Him or not? Do I really trust God to see me and those I love through? Are the burdens I feel real or is it a distraction or the Holy Spirit provoking me to pray. Do I need to act or rest?
I find comfort in Christ. There is this picture I have over and over in my mind of falling into a large comfy hand, it feels like the best hammock you have ever sunk back into. This hand cradles, yet it is firm and ever so gentle and warm. After my reeling moment, I find peace.
In Paul’s epistles I find so much wisdom and truth about who, where and what I need to be. One of my favorite things to do is to pray these scriptures and reword them with the prayer being for my wisdom or Dennis’ or my children, etc.
Eph 1:15-20 Therefore I also, after I heard of your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all the saints, do not cease to give thanks for you, making mention of you in my prayers: that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power which He worked in Christ when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the heavenly places.
I want to know what God is calling me to. I want to recognize the mighty power God has given me to have authority over Satan and his guile to threaten my family. I want to be wise and understand All God has for us. We’ll never comprehend all He has for us, it is too much for us to imagine. I do know it is good (James 1:17), it is peaceful and God is longsuffering as He watches us and longs for us to ask. James 1:5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.
Oh my sweet, sweet Lord. I am so thankful that You take great care over the things we worry about and You teach us to ask instead of worrying. I appreciate your gentle ways.
Loved by the King of Kings ~ Susie