April 1986 I sat in the radiology department at St. Mary’s Hospital with Dr. Hartman by my side facing yet another procedure to remove the ill-formed tissue from my uterus. Instead of a baby I had a mass of tissue which gave all indication it was a normal pregnancy until the 20th week of growth.
After the second D & C in one year I was beside myself wondering if I would ever have another baby. I was so happy I had Samantha, my beautiful three-year old daughter. I really thought I would have many children not just one. Life at that time was so full of turmoil and pain, my marriage ended and Samantha and I were a small family just the two of us surrounded by so many who loved us. We had years of ups and downs and heart ache and many victories. I faced the fact that having any more children was probably out of question.
In 1996 Dennis and I married. We discussed, briefly 😉 having another child, at this time Samantha was 12 years old an only child of a single mother.
The beautiful promises of God happen right under our noses as we are pushing through life not even realizing He has delivered. Maybe it wasn’t the way the little girl playing with Barbies fantasized but it is the fulfillment of a promise and dreams that came true.
Number 23:19 “God is not a man, that He should lie,
Nor a son of man, that He should repent.
Has He said, and will He not do?
Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good?”
See, On December 7, 1996 I had know idea the plan that was being set before our feet. Sure I believed I was marrying the man of my dreams. The family that God was creating is far greater than I could have ever imagined. On December 7, 1996 I became the step mom/other mom to Brett and Erin Dunning. We became a family of 5.
Brett, Samantha and Erin are all so different and add so much joy to my life. Oh God is so faithful, I love them so much.
All I know is that at age 23 having two miscarriages, an ugly marriage falling apart and a three year old daughter looking to me to forge the way into a scary mixed up world, I had know idea at 48 years old I would be so incredibly blessed with three children, two new wonderful sons to add to the mix and lets not forget about Zoe Girl and Carter.
I can’t say it better than the psalmist Psalm 34:4-10
I sought the Lord, and He heard me,
And delivered me from all my fears.
They looked to Him and were radiant,
And their faces were not ashamed.
This poor man cried out, and the Lord heard him,
And saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel of the Lord encamps all around those who fear Him,
And delivers them.
Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good;
Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
Oh, fear the Lord, you His saints!
There is no want to those who fear Him.
The young lions lack and suffer hunger;
But those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing.
Blessed beyond belief ~ Susie